shit happens..

been a long while since i last blogged here really..i dunno how to express my self and who to??i am reall feeling damn sianz...

everything that i had requested for her to show me that she was making an effort into our relationship..everything that i had wanted her to tell everyone..she did it..but not for me..it's for another guy now..introduce to her parents,meet u p for dinners,stayovers at her place cause she cannot step out of the damn house late at night...

EVERYTHING!!!!!!! what the fuck manz...it made me feel even lousier..it's not that i had not asked for all those in the past..when ur mother was asking about if u are dating..u chose not to tell her..drag and drag and drag...till i think that u are not putting in anymore effort..and i think that wat i am putting in is more than enuff in return for ur efforts shown..and u keep thinking that i am not putting in anymore effort..but FUCK!!! have u ever tot of what u have put into the damn relationship....all u did was say sorry and asked for my understanding...i understood and i kept quiet..trying my best to make u feel comfortable for all the uneasiness within me..but where was ur fucking understanding of my situation in the union??

why can't i be busy and forgot to just give u that sms that u had always wanted??and i did msg u..to tell u that i am ding fine...that i m back safely at home from school??u think i was having alot of fun having to stay late in school??even if i did had fun..it was to make those stays more enjoyable...who was there for me??when u are not around?? i have to look for my frens then..
angeline,crystal..my good frens at that moment..you could not even fucking understand that...we were just FRENS!!! and i repeat FRENS!! does that fucking sounds like i was in love with them??

i asked for ur understanding..give me time..and yes..u gave me a day to sort things out..i know that it is a big problem..and u know it too...

have u ever considered how many one day i gave to you???

but did i pester u after one day??

come on manz...give me a break..

fuck off..